| the end of an era |
[14 Jan 2008|03:25pm] |
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I never post here anymore, and it really wasn't a conscious decision. I think for all these years (since sophomore year of high school?) this journal has been a safety blanket, something that held all of my fears, hopes, loves and heartaches. That I haven't had anything to write about I think is a good thing- I see it as a sign of my strength, that maybe, just maybe, I have become the person I always knew I was capable of being.
To attribute this change in me all to Greg wouldn't be entirely accurate, but he has been one of the deciding factors. He has been my best friend since the 9th grade, and, yes, it was a roller coaster. Timing was never right. Feelings were never the same. We fought, we stopped talking, we moved away from each other- but we always worked it out. We both knew that our lives were connected somehow, we just didn't know the end to the story.
And still, we don't know what the future holds for us. My fear surrounding what this could mean led me to take this more slowly than I ever have. I tried to harden my heart, push him away, refused to give him the title he's wanted since September. But I couldn't deny any longer how right this feels, and always has felt. All I know is that I'm not scared anymore- I've never been a good relationship person, I'm never comfortable, I'm constantly wondering what else is out there, if I'm limiting myself. But for the first time (and maybe it's because I'm getting to an age to actually think about these things...) I can picture a future. Marrying this man. Having a family with this man. Spending the rest of my life- good and bad, with him. He just gets me, we work together. I want to give him everything he deserves in this world and above all, we love each other. We always have. So I think that's as good a place as any to sign off. I just don't identify with the 16 year old girl anymore, the one that started this journal so long ago. And I think I'm ready to look forward to the future rather than dwell on the past. The memories will last a lifetime though ;)
<3
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| this conversation amuses me |
[15 Oct 2007|02:11pm] |
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me: hey how are youSent at 11:31 AM on Monday
Alexis: it was fun Sent at 11:35 AM on Monday soooo don't kill me... but somebody was saying really great things about you and told me to say hi but i forget who it was but somebody who really thinks you're awesome says hi!
i don't hate you but nice to know ![[smile]](http://mail.google.com/mail/images/cleardot.gif)
Alexis: well the moral of the story is that you're amazing
and awesome according to somebody |
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| Reason #52,805 why I love my boys... |
[08 Oct 2007|04:58pm] |
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Because if it weren't for the Red Sox sweeping the Angels to make it into the ALCS, my life would utterly suck right now. And I wish I were joking.
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[04 Oct 2007|04:38pm] |
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Ugh, I hate medicine head. I hate feeling like my head is floating 2 feet above my shoulders and doing somersaults in the air. I hate sneezing every 2 seconds, and having a fever. I'm sick of being sick!
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| et tu, brutus? |
[01 Oct 2007|11:19am] |
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People get crushed like biscuit crumbs
And laid down in the bed you made
You have tried your best to please everyone
But it just isn't happening
No, it just isn't happening
And it's fucked up, fucked up
And this is fucked up, fucked up
This your blind spot, blind spot
It should be obvious, but it's not.
But it isn't, but it isn't
You cannot kickstart a dead horse
You just crush yourself and walk away
I don't care what the future holds
Cause I'm right here and I'm today
With your fingers you can touch me
I'm your black swan, black swan
But I made it to the top, made it to the top
This is fucked up, fucked up
You are fucked up, fucked up
This is fucked up, fucked up
Be your black swan, black swan
I'm for spare parts, broken up
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| hey there delilah, what's it like in new york city? |
[20 Sep 2007|01:45pm] |
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"So first off thanks for letting me stay with you and not just kicking me out for showing up uninvited. I hope you had as good of a time as I did. I'm sorry that whenever I seem to be around you- sleep is so hard to come by, I guess we'll have to work on that. I feel more confused but at the same time more certain of us.
If that makes any sense at all please explain it to me cause I don't really get it and I just wrote it.
Alright I need sleep cause I'm doing this at 11 this evening and have had a long day today compounded by a long weekend. Regardless, I made you a playlist. I tried to put together a compilation of music that you would enjoy, had lyrics that I like, and some emotions that I feel. This is not true in every song so don't read too much into every little detail. I love you babe and I hope you enjoy.
Love,
Greg"
I can't explain what it was like to open my door and see him standing there unexpectedly. I can't explain how I'm feeling or where we'll go from here. But finally, after so many years, we're in the same place at the same time. It's scary and it's thrilling and it's comfortable...almost alarmingly so. He's known me for so long, he's been my best friend- he knows when I'm lying, when I'm hiding, my every mannerism, my hopes, my fears.
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| ~*~ time is a healer ~*~ |
[14 Sep 2007|09:38am] |
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and the other day, this new friend of mine said something to me
"just because something starts differently, doesn´t mean it´s worth less."
and i soaked it in, how i soaked it in, how i soaked it in
and just as to prove how right he was, then you came.
so i´m gonna give, yes i´m gonna give, i´m gonna give you a try
and the question is, was i more alive then than i am now?
i happily have to disagree; i laugh more often now, i cry more often now,
i am more me.
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| "So...where do we go from here?" |
[07 Sep 2007|01:45pm] |
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if i told you things i did before
told you how i used to be
would you go along with someone like me?
if you knew my story word for word
handled all my history
would you go along with someone like me ?
i did before and had my share...it didn't lead nowhere
i would go along with someone like you
it doesn't matter what you did, who you were hanging with
we could stick around and see this night through
and we don't care about the young folks
talkin' bout the young style
and we don't care about the old folks
talkin' bout the old style too
and we don't care about our own folks
talkin' bout our own stuff
all we care about is talking
talking only me and you
usually when things have gone this far
people tend to disappear
no one would surprise me unless you do
i can tell there's something goin on
hours seem to disappear
everyone is leaving- i'm still with you
it doesn't matter what we do
where we are going to
we can stick around and see this night through
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| this modern love |
[17 Aug 2007|03:49pm] |
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You told me you wanted to eat up my sadness
Well jump on, enjoy, you can gorge away
You told me you wanted to eat up my sadness
(Jump right)
Baby, you've got to be more discerning
I've never known what's good for me
Baby, you've got to be more demanding
(Jump left)
What are you holding out for?
What's always in the way?
Why so damn absent-minded?
Why so scared of romance?
I've grown closer to some surprising new friends and I've cut adrift those people who drain me. Basically- I can only be me- and be happy in that. I can't care what other people think and I can't spend precious time trying to live up to the image that others have in their head that I don't identify with. Life's too fucking short.
*Breathe in, breathe out* And move on...
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| from bad to f-ing awful... |
[09 Aug 2007|05:25pm] |
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January
1. Who kissed you on new years?
I'd rather not remember...
2. Did you have a new year's resolution this year?
No, I don't like to set myself up for failure ;)
3. Does it snow where you live?
occassionally
4. Do you like hot chocolate?
love it
5. Have you ever been to Times Square to watch the ball drop?
no, never...I'm told that only tourists do that ;)
FEBRUARY
1. Who was your Valentine?
Justin Timberlake (psych..) Matt.
2. When you were little did you buy Valentine's for the whole class?
I did, I especially loved the ones that had packs of lifesavers in them- my favorite!!
3. Do you care if the groundhog sees its shadow or not?
hell to the no.
MARCH
1. Are you Irish?
and damn proud!
2. Do you wear green every Year on St. Patrick’s Day?
I try too...but for an Irish person I don't own that much green
3. What did you do for St. Patty's Day in 2007?
I was pathetic- started drinking at 10am, was drunk by 3pm and started crying when 3EB came on
4. Are you happy when winter is pretty much over?
it's always nice to experience new things
APRIL
1. Do you like the rain?
april showers are the best kind :)
2. Did you play an April fool's joke on anyone this year?
i actually forgot it was april fool's day until, like, the 3rd?
3. Do you get tons of candy on Easter?
yes, my room mate made me a wonderful Easter basket :)
4. Do you celebrate 4/20?
no unfortunetly...
5. Do you love the month of April?
it was actually a pretty shitty month- aside from Greg coming to visit.
MAY
1. What is your favorite flower?
tulips or gerbera daisies
3. Finish the phrase "April showers...":
don't happen in may
4. Do you celebrate May 16th: National Piercing Day?
there is such a thing? damn...I didn't know we had such lame days
5. Is May anything special to you?
I've always liked it for no apparent reason- it's when the weather's pleasant but not too hot, the tourists haven't flocked to NYC yet and it's when college let out for the summer.
JUNE
1. What year did/will you graduate from high school?
2002
2. Did you do anything fun during this month?
June...umm...I went to DC! And Coney Island and a couple of B-Day parties and Canadia! So, yeah :)
3. Have a favorite baseball team?
BoSox baby!!
JULY
1. What did you do on the Fourth of July?
I was in Canada...celebrating Canada Day, zing!
2. Are you going on any vacations during this month?
not this month, but in September I'm planning a trip to FLA and San Fran
3. Do you blast the A/C all day?
oh god, I'd be dead with out it!
AUGUST
1. Are you doing anything special at the end of your summer?
going home for my mom's surgery. I wouldn't call it special, but it's necessary
2. What was your favorite summer memory of '07?
there are really so many..my birthday party and killing my toe, Lissa's recent house party, reading the 7th and last Harry Potter (tear)...and actually, just trying to take control in general and standing up for myself for once.
3. Did you have a sunburn?
yes...a couple..damn irish skin
4. Did you go to the pool a lot?
ha, try never.
SEPTEMBER
1. Will you be attending college/school?
I'm probably going to take a class or two at the New School
2. Who was/is your favorite teacher?
Mr Richter, Mr Shacochis
3. Do you like fall better than summer?
it's a tossup- I have my favorites in every season
OCTOBER
1. What was your last Halloween costume?
Rainbow Brite
2. What is your favorite candy?
skittles, or anything chocolate, twizzlers...I'm pretty easy to please
3. Who's birthday is this Month?
My uncle Chris', Mike Heman's
4. What was your favorite thing about this month?
The foliage, apple cider, sweater weather
NOVEMBER
1. Whose house do you go to for Thanksgiving?
my home usually
2. whats best about this month?
pumpkin pie? I don't know, I've never really "loved" November...call me ambivalent ;)
3. What are you thankful for?
my family, my amazing friends, a roof over my head
4. Do you love stuffing? I did...until we started having to make my dad's family's stuffing...aka- putting sausage in it. I HATE sausage
DECEMBER
1. Do you celebrate Christmas?
yes :)
2. What is December 1st, 2007?
the first day of dec.
3. Have you ever been kissed under the mistletoe?
not seriously
4. Get anything special last year?
nothing worth writing home about
5. What do you want this year?
I want to be happy. That's really it.
6. Do you like cold weather?
Love it :) It's ski weather!!
7. Have you ever licked a pole and got stuck?
hell no, did Christmas Story teach you nothing?
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| oh la la |
[08 Aug 2007|12:02pm] |
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Saying you're going to call and not calling is still pet peeve #1...
But you contact me, and then take days at a time to get back to me...well, it's not a pet peeve, but it's torture. I sit here and I wait. I chide myself on the sad excuse of a reply I sent to you...even though I spent hours agonizing over whether it was appropriate or not. Did it take the right tone, was it too flirty, not flirty enough? I wonder why you emailed me in the first place because I haven't heard from you in 2 months and what does it all mean?
And yet I know when I see your name pop up in my inbox- all will be forgiven. Because I find you more than adorable. Even if you're a Yankees fan. And you live in Brooklyn. And your music tastes are slightly questionable....
C'est la douleur exquise, n'est-ce pas?
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| blabber-ings |
[07 Aug 2007|04:49pm] |
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1. If I looked in your trunk, what would I find? as I don't have a car I'm going to go with "nothing".
2. Do you go to the bathroom with the door open or closed? closed...unless it's like Lissa, or my mom in the other room and I'm trying to talk to them
3. Are your underwear and socks folded in your drawers, or just thrown in? all folded and organized, only slightly anally ;)
4. Sleep on your back or stomach? stomach
5. Are you a cuddler? oh god yes
6. What would I find if I looked under your bed? the floor
7. Something that happened today that has made you mad? absolutely nothing actually- it's amazing!
8. What were you doing before this survey? finishing up some work and waiting for it to turn 5pm
9. What will you do after this survey? go home and make dinner/watch a movie with some friends
10. Marriage or living together? currently single...but eventually marriage. someday, someday :)
11. What are you wearing right now? summer dress- only slightly inappropriate for work, but it's hot as ballz outside
12. How many times have you been in love? thought i was 4 times...in retrospect...once.
13. Do you talk about your feelings or hide them? more and more I realize how many boundaries I've set up in front of my actual feelings...I wish I could be more open but I have an immense fear of getting hurt
14. Someone that has died that you want to see in Heaven? I've always wanted to get to know my grandfather. He died when I was 3 and I don't remember a thing about him.
15. Is there something you regret and wish you could take back? yes...but I'm pretty sure the situation is unfixable at this point
16. First thing you do when you wake up? look out the window
17. Last person you told you love them? greg
18. Kiss with your eyes open or closed? closed
19. Bite or Lick? ice cream? I'm going to go with ice cream. Lick...
20. Last argument you got into? matt- many weeks ago. I haven't had any since actually...
21. Do you tend to rip the paper off water bottles? totally! My hands have to constantly do something or I get fidgety
22. If the mob was after you, what would you do? skip the f-out of town!!
23. When you shut off your alarm clock, do you tend to fall back asleep? no, but I try
24. If you were given the chance to take care of a monkey for a weekend, would you? I always wanted a marmoset- they're the cutest little things!
25. What is the current advertisement on the side of the screen? none amazingly
26. What are you looking forward to in the next few months? umm...emilee's coming to visit next weekend, then a possible trip to Cali to see Emily and Allison, to RI to see Gregory, some possible camping action...other things will come up I'm sure :)
27. When will you turn 50? 27 years
28. If you were being chased by an alligator, what would you do? I hear if you run in a zigzag pattern you'll be ok...I seem to recall it was a Mythbusters episode?
29. How many pillows are on your bed? 4 currently :)
30. What song are you currently listening to? current favorite: The Decemberists ~ Legionnaire's Lament
31. Have you ever passed out from drinking? ha...
32. If you caught a significant other cheating on you what would you do? vomit, cry, fly into a murderous rage, any combination of the 3 actually? Dunno since it's never happened...
33. What time did you wake up this morning? 7:20...then I got out of bed at 7:30
34. Do you have any cousins? bunches, mostly on my mother's side...
35. Can you imagine yourself living in a cardboard box? yeah, but I wouldn't want to
36. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? Sarah
37. What is the WORST subject they teach in school? I hated math but understood why you had to learn it...probably home ec cause its a little outdated
38. Where do you plan on living when you grow up? I'd love to go back to Boston
39. What was your dream this morning? a happy one...a very happy one :)
40. How many times have you seen your favorite movie? enough that when the tape ran out I bought a DVD...and wound up having to replace that too!
41. Where was the last place you traveled? Boston last weekend...before that probably Atlantic City?
42. How was your past weekend? amazing amazing amazing :)
43. What is your favorite song? too many
44. If puppies stayed small forever, would you buy one? i would love a dog no matter if it was a puppy or not
45. What is the best ice cream flavor? anything ben & jerry makes is amazing- but I'm digging their new "Lighten Up" flavors
46. Do you think you are attractive? passibly?
47. Is someone on your mind right now? definitely
48. Can you say the alphabet backwards? not even going to try
49. Do you worry about how you look? what girl doesnt?
50. Would you ever change for a boy/girl? it depends on the level of what they're asking you to do
51. Pro-life or Pro-choice? as long as you don't try to make me believe the same stuff you do we'll be ok
52. Have you ever been on stage? many times- for dance recitals, in plays or in chorus concerts
53. Can you whistle? yes- relatively well too :)
54. Would you do anything for that special someone? i frequently do...
55. Do you know who Stewie Griffin is? only the most amazing character ever
56. Do you have any plans for today? just getting out of work and chilling with some friends
57. Are you friends with guys or girls? both
58. Why? why what?
59. Have you ever thought a friend could be more than a friend? yeah...
60. Do you like the beach? love, love the beach
61. What color is your toothbrush? purple obviously!
62. What makes you laugh? my life lately...but in a good way
63. Are you ticklish? in certain situations ;)
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| new endings, new beginnings |
[27 Jul 2007|03:24pm] |
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"To tell you the truth I've said it before-
Tomorrow I start in a new direction
I know I've been half-asleep
I'm never doing that again
I look straight at what's coming ahead
And soon it's going to change in a new direction
Every night as I'm falling asleep
these words repeated in my head...
Voices calling from a yellow road
to come downstairs, and say hello
don't be shy, just say hello..."
I've made some definitive decisions in these last 24 hours. I've cut off all contact with Matt- it's time to put my money where my mouth is and prove to him and to myself that I am fine on my own- and that I deserve so much better than the little he's willing to give me. It's time to wake up and respect myself for once.
I have also made an appointment with a therapist for Monday afternoon. Whatever issues I have I want to take control and get to the bottom of them so that I be more secure in myself and my relationships with others. I should have done this years ago- but I am least proud of myself that I've finally decided to let someone help me....even if it seems like I'm only conforming to the NYC stereotype.
I owe this much to myself. It's not going to be easy, but I guarantee the reward will be amazing.
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| life update |
[18 Jul 2007|09:29am] |
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1) THANK YOU ALL FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY WISHES! I mean- to those of you who did wish me a Happy Birthday ;) Party was so much fun! Resulted in me having a busted-up toe (I wish I had a picture to show but I don't...) Call it a combination of alcohol and an uneven sidewalk...more so the alcohol probably...but it's healing ever-so-slowly. Those of you on Facebook can peruse the pics there...oh and Dispatch was AMAZING! I know its so corny to call something a "religious experience"...but for me, it was. I was there with 3 people from Scituate and this is the music we went through high school with and they're amazing live. Pictures also on Facebook...
2) The new apartment is gorgeous- I'm very, very happy there. Just needs a few more finishing touches- but I got a new bedspread and curtains, a new TV..it actually sort of looks like a grown up type place...somewhere I won't be embarassed to bring people home to.
3) I'm finally making a concerted effort to move on past the people who don't treat me right. I'm not going to come right out and say that I'll be 100% successful- but at least I've realized the problem areas and am willing to try to do something about it. This includes: bad friends, leeches and Matt. I am worth so much more than any of these people give me credit for. And why I continue to allow them to walk all over me when I have so many people in my life ready and willing to be there for me in any situation- I just don't know. I think it's the age-old issue of me not wanting to be alone...but lately I haven't really been alone all that much, and for the times I am, I make the best of it. So, like an apple- I'll cut out the bad bits and still have something perfectly good (and delicious ;)...what a horrible analogy- so not as "deep" as I was looking for, but it will do.
*Warning* shitacious song lyrics...
Wanting you to be wanting me.
No that ain't no way to be.
How I feel- read my lips,
because I'm so over..
Moving on, it's my time,
You never were a friend of mine.
Hurt at first, a little bit,
But now I'm so over...
I'm so over it..
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[12 Jul 2007|02:15pm] |
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I'm waiting for blood to flow to my fingers,
I'll be all right when my hands get warm.
Ignoring the phone, I'd rather say nothing.
I'd rather you'd never heard my voice.
You're calling too late- too late to be gracious
You do not warrant long goodbyes.
You're calling too late, you're calling too late...
I'm tired of you letting me down.
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| not to sound too down about everything |
[11 Jul 2007|09:23am] |
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...Cause I'm pretty sure the party this weekend will be tons of fun- and a lot of my friends are coming- including my 2 bestest ones from Boston!!
But really...birthdays once you enter the real world just aren't that fun anymore. For example- today I am at work. A few of my coworkers remembered it was my birthday- most didn't. In exactly 15 minutes my boss (who didn't remember my birthday...) is sending me to pick up his pills that he left at home which his wife sent in with another person from Jersey. 20 blocks roundtrip in the 95 degree heat and humidity. Happy Birthday to me...
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| pick yourself up, dust yourself off, start all over again... |
[09 Jul 2007|11:54am] |
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There's this nagging voice in my head that won't die down, that is obviously the articulation of my deepest, internal thoughts. The ones that I try to drown out even though they know what's right.
"Pull away, don't get hurt"
I wonder where my faith went, and why I can't trust my feelings or anyone else's. Is it my fault? Am I too insecure in myself to believe someone could care about me the way they say they do? Or is the fault elsewhere- in that the people I get involved with are unable to tell me what I need to hear or to show me how they really feel?
I really hate these questions- it's absolutely maddening. And depressing. And generally blah...
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| How much have you changed in 6 years? |
[28 Jun 2007|09:11am] |
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Six years ago.....
1.) How old were you?: 17...oh dear god.
2.) Where did you go to school?: Scituate High/ Queens Mary's Grammar School in Walsall...was it really that long ago?
3) Where did you work?: Buttonwood Books
4.) Where did you live?: Scituate
5.) Where did you hang out?: Scitty, Marshfield Mazes
6.) Did you wear glasses?: NOPE
7.) Who was your best friend(s)?: Erica Dieselman, Kara Bogusz, Amanda White, AJ Tibbetts, Greg Hom, Mike Camp (hahahahaha....), Craig Anderson, Mike Heman
8.) How many tattoos did you have?: none
9.) How many piercings did you have?: none
10.) What car did you drive?: my first ever car- the white phantom (1986 chevy cavalier)
11.) Had you been to a real party? not a "real party" but a house party!
12.) Had You had your heart broken?: no, not yet...trust me it's coming though
13. Single/Taken/Married/Divorced?: depending on when in 2001 we're talking about- with Mike/broken up with Mike/with Spencer
-------------3 years ago----------
1.) How old were you?: 20
2.) Where did you go to school?: Syracuse University
3.) Where did you work?: Vallar's Marble & Tile....don't ask...
4.) Where did you live?: Syracuse/Scituate
5.) Where did you hang out?: Braintree Plaza, Lissa's house/car/whatever
6.) Did you wear glasses?: no- I refused to wear glasses for awhile. Now I'm ok with it :)
7.) Who was your best friend(s)?: Karen Ryan, Liz Young, Anne McGee, Lissa Paradice, Greg Hom
9.) How many tattoos did you have.?: got one freshman year on my lower back
10.) How many piercings did you have?: just my ears
11) What kind of car did you drive? nothing- I didn't own a car having just come back from the UK
12) Had your heart broken?: again, not yet
13. Single/Taken/Married/Divorced?: with Bob
--------------------Today--------------------
1.) How old are you?: 22...almost 23 in 2 weeks
2.) Where do you work?: Showtime Networks
3.) Where do you live?: Astoria, NY
4.) Do you wear glasses?: a few times a month
5.) Who are your close friends?: Lissa, Greg, Kaitlin Addy, Kerrianne Murphy, Allison Mac, Emilee Cummings
6.) Do you talk to your old friends?: most all of them
7.) How many piercings do you have?: still just my ears
8.) How many tattoos?: still just the one
9.) What kind of car do you have?: again, none- in these year jumps we skipped over my only other car- the GEO Tracker
10.) Has your heart been broken?: yes. but it's mended.
11.)Single/Taken/Married/Divorced?: complicated should be an option here.
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My mom's in the hospital. She's been there for 2 nights now and even though they have every hope she's going to be ok (and she has every hope they're going to release her today, let her go home and sleep...) she's still not been given any definites as to whether they're going to be able to stabilize her blood pressure or whether she's going to need surgery or not.
It's just really scary because she's still young and healthy and even though I know there's nothing I can do I still want to be there with my family.
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| because surveys are much easier to explain than what's actually going on with me lately |
[18 Jun 2007|09:55am] |
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1] What are you looking forward to this week?
Umm...nothing spectacular, a few outings planned here and there
2] Who's car were you in last?
Matt's
3] When is the next time you will kiss someone?
I have absolutely no clue. Hopefully soon, but one never knows...
4] What color shirt are you wearing?
I'm not wearing a shirt silly ;) I'm wearing a dress!
5] How long is your hair?
A little past my shoulders-ish?
8] Last movie you watched?
Ocean's 13...meh
9] Last thing you ate?
Pasta for din din last night
10] Last thing you drank?
Currently drinking a delicious cup of tea, made with authentic PG Tips! Brings me back to England ;)
11] Where did you sleep last night?
in my bed, I find it much more comfortable than the floor
13] Are you happy right now?
happier than i've been in a while for most reasons, sadder for other reasons
14] What did you say last?
"Did you need something?" To my boss. I wish I was the type of person that said really interesting things all the time, cause these questions usually have the answer "Hey" or "What's up?" or "Yes!"
15] Where is your phone?
hidden, so that I don't get depressed that noone calls me <le sigh>
16] what color are your eyes?
some mixture of blue and green
19] Who did you visit last?
I guess that would be Kait and Emilee in DC...but next week I'm going to Canada to see my grandparents, mom, sister and cousins, etc!
21] Who/what do you hate/dislike currently?
Hate is a strong word...and I never actively "hate" anyone- because if they do enough to make me angry, I just cut them out of my life and am a happier person for it.
22] What are you listening to?
Peter, Bjorn & John- slightly obsessed lately
23] If you could have one thing right now what would it be?
to be a year from now already
24] What is your favorite scent?
I love when a guy smells nice. My favorite thing is to lean into someone and just want to stay there all day...
25] Who makes you happiest right now?
myself...really the only person you can rely on regularly
26] What were you doing at midnight last night?
passed the fuck out after an amazing if confusing weekend
30] Are you left handed?
and proud!
31] Spell your name without vowels:
KRN
34] What's for dinner tonight?
the leftovers from last night's pasta fest
35] When Is Your Birthday?
July 11th. Please send presents to: Karen O'Brien, New York, NY, USA, The World :)
36] Who was the last person to send you a text message?
Greg
39] Where was the last place you went shopping?
The mall in Queens awhile ago...I can't go shopping lately as I am pathetically without funds until the parent's check arrives...
40] How do you feel about your hair right now?
Blah...I want to do something different
41] Do you have any expensive jewelry?
aside from the ring my parents bought me- nothing over $200
47] Are you an only child or do you have siblings?
I have a wonderful sister Laura!
48] Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
never enough ;)
49] What was the first thing you thought when you woke up?
Fucking Mondays...
50] Do you drink beer?
didn't use it, but it is SO much cheaper than hard alcohol in the city (plus it's the same wherever you get it- can never be watered down, or made the wrong way!)
52] Myspace or Facebook?
Facebook...I'm actually thinking about deleting my Myspace account, I just don't use it that much...
53] Do you have T-Mobile?
ha, why would you?
54] What is/was your favorite subject in school?
English and History
55] What are you doing?
Who the hell knows.
57] Do you have any talents?
wouldn't you like to know...? ;)
58] Have you ever been IN a wedding?
Just Mary's...now Kait's engaged but she hasn't told us about bridesmaids yet. As long as I'm invited to the wedding I'm ok with it :)
59] Do you have any children?
I have enough people around me acting 5 years old, I don't need an actual child.
60] Did you take a nap today?
no, but that sounds amazing
62] Ever met anyone famous before?
Donny Osmond...but other than that I can't recall
63] Do you want to be famous one day?
not at all. try having your privacy then.
66] Could you handle being in the military?
no
68] Do you believe in Karma?
JT said it best--what comes around goes around
69] Last time you went to the gym or worked out?
last week
70] How many pairs of shoes do you own?
ha, NOT enough!!
71] Last place you drove your car to?
wow...if we're talking MY car (my Geo, RIP) that would be from UMass Boston --> my house...because the next week I moved to Jersey City and sold the car. If we're talking about the last time I drove anywhere...that would be my mom's car, from Lissa's apt to my house.
72] Been to las vegas?
I was supposed to go this summer, oh well...and after going to Atlantic City, I'm not sure if I'm so enthralled with the idea anymore...though if my girls went I'd be there in a heart beat!
73] Have you ever lived in a two story house?
Yeah, in college
74] Have you ever been gambling?
Twice, and I lost money both times
75] When is the last time you updated your blog?
Doing it currently!
76] Have you been to New York City?
nope, never :p
77] Ever been to Disneyland/world?
Both!
78] Do you have a favorite cartoon character?
Marvin the Martian
79] Last thing you cooked?
Chicken and potatoes
80] Hows the weather?
As the Channel 7 weatherman would say- "The 3 H's: hot, hazy, and humid!"
81] Do you e-mail?
all the time, its safer than calling someone
82] Stupidest thing you ever did with your cell phone?
I thought I left it at a bar and was freaking out for about a day and a half until I went to put my shoes on and it was shoved into the toe of the left one. I still don't know how it happened!
83] Last time you were sick?
I get "sick" a lot- but mostly annoying little colds. I felt like I was dying back in the winter, but everyone gets that
84] Do you think anyone will repost this?
Probably not, I'm hoping other people have less free time than me.
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